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So about 50 to 75 of you know about the truth. The rest of ya will just have to chalk it up to another episode in my increasingly bizarre and stressful life.

But when I put my pics into storage I saw a way to take advantage of a bad thing and turn it into a good thing. One thing that has been hard to keep up with over the years is the number of comments, faves and watchers I get on a daily basis. As most of you know, I do try. I am pretty friendly and like to respond back to everyone. I see this as a chance to make certain that the people who watch me the most get watched back. It gives me a chance to try and thank as many people as possible too.

Also, over the years, pics have gone in and out of storage and often are not in my gallery in the order they were posted in. Which personally frustrates me. OCD or something. But when you un-store something it does not automatically go into your featured folder. You have to move it there and then it places it right at the top, not in the location it was when you initially posted it. Trying to move them is not easy on this site, especially when you have 3000+ deviations. This gives me a chance to put things back in order from oldest to newest.

It also gives me a chance to offer more full size nude images to download. They will range from 80 points to 150 points depending on what they are. Once this project is complete I will offer more complete sets to download as well. You can really help me out by buying some once in awhile. It will help feed me and keep me from having to go get a part-time job. I'd say 50% of my day is taken up with editing photos. It's time-consuming and frustrating sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't do it if I didn't like it but...

However, as I un-store deviations I will not be including any pics of Kittin Von Kat. This includes her girl-girl shoot with Plush Suicide from Suicide Girls. I would be willing to consider selling her photo sets to anyone who notes me and asks about it. Despite having found someone else, I'm still pretty pissed off with her and I am sure she is as well. But she's still slinging my photos online for cash so I might as well do the same. I just ain't gonna give her any free promotion.

Plush however is a sweetheart and could also use some extra income. I'm sure a lot of you assume this lifestyle is always glamorous and rewarding and sometimes it can be. Two years ago I left the job I'd had for 11 years to do this full time. And let me tell you, sometimes I have STARVED. I had to live in a car for 2 weeks. Some of those nights I managed to find couches to crash on. Thank god for my models and photographer friends. But it was still a scary time. Right now, despite a few issues, I have hope and faith for the future.

Anyway, I have a paid gig tonight which will give me money to mail something off that is sitting here collecting dust and hopefully pay my phone bill. I have also shot and edited a ton of new stuff you haven't seen. Coming soon.
  • Mood: Love
  • Listening to: Dinosaur Jr., sixties garage punk!
  • Reading: The Invisibles Omnibus
  • Watching: waiting for Game of Thrones and Breaking Bad!!!
  • Playing: Photoshop CS6
  • Eating: Cheba Hut!
  • Drinking: Brawndo. It's got what plants crave.
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CrawlingchaosMD Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Glad to hear you're not leaving for good. Life sometimes puts us through highs and lows, but having the ability to cope and laugh at it when your ass is on the ground, well, it makes you stronger, sir.
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Photographer
LOL I definitely somehow find ways to laugh about it and keep pressing forward. When I started out I had a savings account and a full time job so it was easy to buy props and equipment. Once I went part time at work to concentrate on this more it got more difficult. Finally going full time has been just weird. Sometimes it was AMAZING. One or two really kushy jobs set me up for a couple months. But then every time I got one it seemed all the smaller gigs dried up. So then it was a struggle to just find small commercial gigs. Shooting water filters or doing portraits for business owners. Anything to pay the bills.

Regardless I don't like quitting doing what I like to shoot. The stuff I post here but sometimes I have to take weeks off or find myself struggling and depressed and it's harder then to even edit.

It has been neat though, pulling the old images out of storage. Good memories. Some of the work makes me cringe. I can see my mistakes. But I can also see how I improved and grew and got better. This is truly a life less ordinary! Thanks so much again for the Premium Membership!!! :)
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Darth-Marlan Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013   Photographer
I hear you there indeed :nod:

I so want to just go and create stuff and follow my artistic dreams, and have wanted to for a long time but yeah, stuck in menial no-fun jobs doesn't help, this year really has to be a new start for me that way (oh and i am going to Africa mid next year to shoot animals...lots of animals...lol just with a camera tho and i am sure that a lot of the local human population will be in the viewfinder as well)

But yeah always wishing you all the best, you and your work has always been inspirational to me, even if i don't jump onto the inspiration as well as i should at times...
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013  Professional Photographer
You should more often! But damn you are lucky getting to travel to Africa! All my trips overseas lately seem to fizzle out. Was hoping to go to Paris for the first time this Spring. Keeping my fingers crossed!!!

I gave up my day job over two years ago. Look how often I have starved and struggled LOL Sometimes you can't win.
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:icondarth-marlan:
Darth-Marlan Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2013   Photographer
Yeah things should be a bit more creative soon, the new job starts on tues, back in the office, but making more than the last one plus i should have a bit of freedom in regards to travel arrangements and things too, so looking forward to it.

I haven't got to Paris yet, nearly did when i did a big backpacking adventure when i was 13, but we spent too much time in Turkey, so france got skipped, but yeah I am sure you'll have a blast there indeed, so wishing you all the best with that :D

Yeah i know, i have been following you a long time and i know i probably would have cracked a few times myself under those circumstances.
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2013  Professional Photographer
You are lucky in that you have gotten to travel quite a bit. There is a whole lot of world out there and I feel I have barely seen it. :(

But yeah you have seen me go through some intense periods of ups and downs. I'm pretty honest about them though so hopefully people understand that it isn't always easy!
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Darth-Marlan Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2013   Photographer
I'm lucky my parents have the travel bug :D but yeah i do like to wander about and see lots of new things :)

Yeah, I think people sometimes get a bit caught up with things without looking beyond and towards what may be actually happening, or how people can be affected which can result in reactions that are not always pleasant, until they happen to experience it firsthand :)
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SPEC-OPS99 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
more power to ya brother. im pullin for ya hoping everything works out best. i wish i had the balls,skill,and means to make photography a full time gig.

all the best man.
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Photographer
It's a lot of work to edit and post pics online and my business partner keeps trying to convince me to leave this site because she thinks it takes up too much of my time. If I can show her it's worthwhile...
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SPEC-OPS99 Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
absolutely, editing takes up most of a photographer time. even the bit of photography i do, i realize how long it takes.
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013  Professional Photographer
Way too much time! Gah!
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VegasBrad1 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013
Welcome back even tho you didn't exactly leave haha LOVE your work!!!
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Photographer
LOL very, very briefly. Though almost 3000 pics are still in storage.
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glenh865 Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2013
Good luck my friend, hopefully things will work out for the best. And I also hope that your other situation has been rectified, leaning your way, of course. I am looking forward to some of your new edits, etc. You always have great work.
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
Thank you! Seems to be on the right path again. Always a life less ordinary! Wait til you see these pics of Klarra and her adorable Asian friend Kyoko! RAWR!
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glenh865 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013
I can't wait!
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Photographer
Totally loving that series!
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WickedPrince Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2013
Well yay on the paid gig thing at least. :)
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
Yes, was very much needed! And the shots are DOPE!
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WickedPrince Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013
Shweet. :)
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Photographer
Very sweet!
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pyrodice Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013
Good luck with it all. If I hadn't been jobless myself since essentially '07, I'd be able to give a push...
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
Technically I have been jobless since 2011 if you don't consider what I do a "job" LOL
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pyrodice Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
Well, I'm counting since I went off to prison for dealing with a pedo in a way the law "didn't appreciate" :P
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Photographer
Well I hope he got what he deserved!
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pyrodice Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
His house was pretty wrecked by a fire...
If he'd been home, I had a shotgun.

In any case, I did some time, and he hasn't hit on a kid since, according to people who've been watching him since...

Worth it.
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peterryczkowski Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Its good to do some spring cleaning. It also helps clear the head.
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
Yes it does!
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hoshq Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013   Traditional Artist
"Two years ago I left the job I'd had for 11 years to do this full time". Although my day job right now is the best I've ever had, I dream of doing that too...
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2013  Professional Photographer
Amusingly, the job I had for 11 years did not pay well but was the funnest, coolest job I ever had and though it wasn't perfect, I loved it. I often miss it honestly LOL But being creative and such I suppose I was destined for some kind of artistic lifestyle and here it is. Fucking weird as it gets sometimes.
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koolerkron Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013
Some of those Kittin shots were a few of my faves you ever did, but at least there will still be more awesome shots of other models to look forward to!

Keep it up!
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
Yeah, sorry about that. Maybe in the future. Again, I am not opposed to selling her sets to people. In fact, I sold all the content I shot of her for a site to some of my fans dirt cheap. LOL Something like $30 for all 10 sets. That definitely helped me out at the time.
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chuckiebobphil Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013  Professional Artist
sweet news man, I cant wait for the stuff come back and the new stuff
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
Almost 100 of the old pics are back up!
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chuckiebobphil Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Artist
sweet
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Photographer
Now over 200!!
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chuckiebobphil Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Artist
hell yeah I cant wait till they're all back up
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Photographer
Me too! It's taking awhile because some choice images I am re-editing at full size and offering as premium downloads. Definitely Zara first, then possibly Kayla Stone...
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chuckiebobphil Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Artist
i completely understand sir. I'm re-editing alot of my old writings
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snubnosed Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013
I seriously respect your commitment to your work and willingness to suffer to do it. I couldn't do that even if I had to, too big a wuss.
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
Oh I definitely suffer for my art sometimes.
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TheFettman13 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2013   Artist
Jesus, you have one peculiar life :XD:. Sucks that you seem to have some low points, but hopefully you can get back on track!
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
LOL yeah I do! Always sooo weird. A life less ordinary.
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TheFettman13 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013   Artist
Well if you ever decide to write a story about your life, I'd love to read it :XD:
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:icontatehemlock:
tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013  Professional Photographer
LOL I was just talking about that with a girl I went to high school with in Illinois. Have not talked to her since I was 14 years old. She was quite curious about how I went from there to here. We spent a whole day almost just IM'ing. She said my stories are amusing and fascinating and should be published. I was like, "Well actually I have thought about that..."

Some of my older journal entries have excerpts from what I have written so far...
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TheFettman13 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2013   Artist
Haha, nice! Reminds me of an episode of a show I like.
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tatehemlock Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Photographer
LOL which show?
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TheFettman13 Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013   Artist
"It's always sunny in Philadelphia" :XD:
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